Seeking a Daddy’s Love

By Kathryn Taylor

He’s been out drinkin’ again…
I hear him call my name…
Mom says to just ignore him…
I’m filled with all his shame-
I wish I were asleep…
I wish the need weren’t there…
Why did my daddy leave me
As if he didn’t care?
His absence left a whole 
That needed to be filled…
When step-dad came along,
He seemed to fit the bill-
I hungered for a man 
To fill the roll of “dad”…
Somehow, it got turned around
And changed to something bad-
Sometimes he’d say things,
Things he just shouldn’t say…
Then, one day, he took something
That was only mine to give away- 
I cried out to GOD for help,
But He didn’t come rescue me…
How could He leave me there,
As if He couldn’t see?
I’ll never forget that night,
When I told GOD I wanted to die-
If He couldn’t be there for me,
Then my faith was just a lie-
An awesome peace then filled the room…
I felt His presence as I weeped…
I literally felt Him embrace me
And held me ‘til I fell asleep-
I remember it as if yesterday,
And right from then I knew,
He would always be there for me,
No matter how the winds blew-
I’m sure I could have left-
Some even ask why I stayed…
Sometimes, bad love is good enough
When everyone else has walked away…

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